up down up down again
i dreamed of waitressing again. this time i was getting a rush from organizing it all and being efficient. i know this sounds strange but when you’ve worked at a place like san chez you realize that organization is your best friend. that and a wink and a smile.
i woke up relieved.
the house has been scheduled for an inspection twice and both have fallen through. do you ever wait for something great long enough that you start to think “oh, just forget it” like i am having moments of now? i’ve had too much time to think about how grounded in one place this would make us and i think about the ideal world me that carries all her documentary equipment in a crumpler thrown in the back of the jeep in whatever country requires me to be on back roads in a jeep that month, and wonder about the owning of a home. this is how my mind works when i have too much time.
it’s best to not let it get too idle.